Problem... problem... problem...
Macam2 problem btl sejak akhir2 ni... lepas 1, 1 lagi datang... eh silap, belum lepas 1, 1 lagi datang (haa, ni baru betul)...
1) Lepas balik dari Kampung, challenge pun start... kena tinggal sorang2... I used to be so berani dulu.. sebab housemate sy pun bukan balik tiap2 ari d rumah... rumah 2 kami 2 sj yg duduk... but bila dia tiada, i'm not afraid at all sebab i know dia akan balik... wpun alone but x rasa alone sangat... lepas kejadian dia ditangkap basah ari 2, dia pun malu la balik rumah... so she decide utk pindah pg KL... plus dia dapat tau bf dia 2 dapatkan dia dgn cara ilmu hitam... lagi la dia mau pindah cepat2.. this is the 2nd week sy tinggal alone... i can't bear the loneliness any longer so i decide mo pindah... mati...
2) It's hard to make a decision... mau pindah sarawak ka sabah? Sarawak ada banyak peluang pekerjaan... Sabah plak tiada... I have to move my car juga... perlukan kos... mau buat loan tapi dulu pernah buat and x lulus... y? because my car ada rent yg tertunggak sebulan... My mum help me to pay for it baru2 ni... dalam plan, bayar keta tertunggak baru apply baru punya loan... if dapat loan then i can move to kuching... y? because i need job 2 pay my car, house n the pinjaman.. plus sy kn tanggung my sis yg study dkt Mahsa College d KL... if loan x approve, sy kena minta pertolongan my parents lg... but kena la pindah sabah kalau suda kn tolong kan... tp kalau balik sabah, habis la sy... keja tiada, xdapat pegi mana2.... why is it so hard for me?.. mati...
3) Yesterday i called tuan rumah mau bayar sewa umah bulan lalu (lambat byr sbb my housemate teda duit....), my plan is, sy kn bagitau dia sy mau pindah bulan 2 or pertengahan bulan 1... so, sy mau guna deposit umah 2 bulan yg kena bayar ari 2 utk bulan 12 n 1... but mmg btl2 shock, tuan rumah 2 kata he never get paid for 2 months deposit before... semua rumah2 yg dia sewakan dia amik sebulan deposit sj... plus, dia x benarkan sy guna duit 2 utk byr sewa... he said d money akan dikembalikan selepas sy keluar dari umah 2, and after dorg check rumah 2 tiada kecacatan... if ada kecacatan, they will deduct it with the money... so, i have to pay the rent all by myself... 300 sebulan... mati...
4) Bill elektrik n air total up smua 300... sepa mo bayar 2? my housemate ntah pg mana sudah.. ari 2 before dia pindah dia janji mo bayar tp last week dia x bayar pun... dia ckp mo balik lg 5hb ni... nnt dia bagi... kalau x? mati...
5) My youngest sis call ptg 2.. she asked, "suda makan ka? mum masak sayur timun.. not my taste yuck.." automatically air mata jatuh... adeiii cuba la dia d tpt sy skarang ni... makan x sedap pun sy x kesah asalkan ada org temankan makan... perut kosong bernyanyi2 tp teda selera mo makan sorg2... sigh~~~... mati...
6) I woke up this morning nmpk gate rumah terbuka... OMG... did someone try mo pecah masuk lagi... can u feel how scared i am? If anything bad happen after this, remember that, I love u All.. huhu... mati...
I remember dulu bila sy ada problem, i always take it easy... apa org ckp, whatever will be, will be... n in the end, i survived... tapi kali ni, it's all melibatkan duit... if i have the money then green light... if not? di mana sy mau manyadaikan diri ni? d pagar?... mati...
Can someone please stay with me... sy sedang melalui 1 jalan yg sgt2 gelap.. don't know where to go n where it will end up... empty and alone...
STAY...WITH ME.... XoXo
Macam2 problem btl sejak akhir2 ni... lepas 1, 1 lagi datang... eh silap, belum lepas 1, 1 lagi datang (haa, ni baru betul)...
1) Lepas balik dari Kampung, challenge pun start... kena tinggal sorang2... I used to be so berani dulu.. sebab housemate sy pun bukan balik tiap2 ari d rumah... rumah 2 kami 2 sj yg duduk... but bila dia tiada, i'm not afraid at all sebab i know dia akan balik... wpun alone but x rasa alone sangat... lepas kejadian dia ditangkap basah ari 2, dia pun malu la balik rumah... so she decide utk pindah pg KL... plus dia dapat tau bf dia 2 dapatkan dia dgn cara ilmu hitam... lagi la dia mau pindah cepat2.. this is the 2nd week sy tinggal alone... i can't bear the loneliness any longer so i decide mo pindah... mati...
2) It's hard to make a decision... mau pindah sarawak ka sabah? Sarawak ada banyak peluang pekerjaan... Sabah plak tiada... I have to move my car juga... perlukan kos... mau buat loan tapi dulu pernah buat and x lulus... y? because my car ada rent yg tertunggak sebulan... My mum help me to pay for it baru2 ni... dalam plan, bayar keta tertunggak baru apply baru punya loan... if dapat loan then i can move to kuching... y? because i need job 2 pay my car, house n the pinjaman.. plus sy kn tanggung my sis yg study dkt Mahsa College d KL... if loan x approve, sy kena minta pertolongan my parents lg... but kena la pindah sabah kalau suda kn tolong kan... tp kalau balik sabah, habis la sy... keja tiada, xdapat pegi mana2.... why is it so hard for me?.. mati...
3) Yesterday i called tuan rumah mau bayar sewa umah bulan lalu (lambat byr sbb my housemate teda duit....), my plan is, sy kn bagitau dia sy mau pindah bulan 2 or pertengahan bulan 1... so, sy mau guna deposit umah 2 bulan yg kena bayar ari 2 utk bulan 12 n 1... but mmg btl2 shock, tuan rumah 2 kata he never get paid for 2 months deposit before... semua rumah2 yg dia sewakan dia amik sebulan deposit sj... plus, dia x benarkan sy guna duit 2 utk byr sewa... he said d money akan dikembalikan selepas sy keluar dari umah 2, and after dorg check rumah 2 tiada kecacatan... if ada kecacatan, they will deduct it with the money... so, i have to pay the rent all by myself... 300 sebulan... mati...
4) Bill elektrik n air total up smua 300... sepa mo bayar 2? my housemate ntah pg mana sudah.. ari 2 before dia pindah dia janji mo bayar tp last week dia x bayar pun... dia ckp mo balik lg 5hb ni... nnt dia bagi... kalau x? mati...
5) My youngest sis call ptg 2.. she asked, "suda makan ka? mum masak sayur timun.. not my taste yuck.." automatically air mata jatuh... adeiii cuba la dia d tpt sy skarang ni... makan x sedap pun sy x kesah asalkan ada org temankan makan... perut kosong bernyanyi2 tp teda selera mo makan sorg2... sigh~~~... mati...
6) I woke up this morning nmpk gate rumah terbuka... OMG... did someone try mo pecah masuk lagi... can u feel how scared i am? If anything bad happen after this, remember that, I love u All.. huhu... mati...
I remember dulu bila sy ada problem, i always take it easy... apa org ckp, whatever will be, will be... n in the end, i survived... tapi kali ni, it's all melibatkan duit... if i have the money then green light... if not? di mana sy mau manyadaikan diri ni? d pagar?... mati...
Can someone please stay with me... sy sedang melalui 1 jalan yg sgt2 gelap.. don't know where to go n where it will end up... empty and alone...
STAY...WITH ME.... XoXo
Kesian ko(hugs u)
ReplyDeleteAll about the money...huhuhuu~aku pun selalu sangkut pasal duit..btl² mati langkah trs..but don't think too much k. Msti ada jln kuar juga nanti..I will always right here with u..I will try 2 ask my friend again about the job at Kuching K..dun b sad =)
thanks Ann.. sob sob... kering suda air mata hehe...
ReplyDeletePstt..ko tau aku pun pandai tiba² sedih ni klu 1 urg..dunno what 2 do..pandai 2 air mata kuar sdiri..adeiii~ aku cuma perlukan kawan [ALONE]
ReplyDeletesama la huhu~~ sedih...
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