T.I.M.E... tik tok tik tok

Boleh ka sy x keja ari ni bos? datang pg punch card sj n then main internet haha... actually xda keja sudah ni... ada la sikit but i want to keep it to the next monday haha... mmg penyakit last minute xdapat di kikis ni...

"Time in its aging course teaches all things"

Jom ceta pasal "time" hari ni... sy rasa benda paling org mau d dunia ni adalah masa... tapi adalah sesuatu yg paling org suka bazir adalah masa... how come aa... bila fikir balik memang sikap manusia kan... we never realize kita memang ada benda 2 tapi bila kita kehilangan baru kita mengharap, we wished we have more of it... kita bergerak ikut masa... jam sekian2 kena bangun... pastu kena buat itu ini.. pastu kena tidur... on and on again... yg penting, masa mengajar kita dari masa ke semasa...

1) Family
Semalam sy pg tesco dgn Ati my colleague... dia minta temankan sy pegi beli baju baby yg baru lahir... cute2 baju2 baby kan... kecik sj... pastu tengah pegang2 baju baby tiba2 terasa sayu... 25 tahun sudah sy ni hidup... dulu mesti sy besar mcm baju baby 2 sj... xtau apa2... parents jaga makan pakai... sekarang sudah besar... bayangkan parents sy pun sudah bertambah usia 25 tahun jg... tua sudah dorg... how i wish i could do something yg boleh buat dorg happy... hari 2 time balik rumah happy betul my parents... pg jemput d airport... walaupun banyak beza rupa drg dari dulu tp masih cam lagi rupa drg... dari jauh sudah tersengih2... ni la kali ke 2 sy balik rumah after 3 years merantau kerja tempat orang... serba salah betul bila fikir almost 2 yrs x balik tengok drg d kampung... tapi mmg time 2 xdapat buat apa2 memandangkan boss tpt kerja lama sy 2 x bagi gaji... now i realize, lama sudah sy mengabaikan family sy ni... if anything happen 2 both of them, i wish i was there, looking and take care of them... Kali ni i will be back... for good... "Time teach us to appreciate our family"

p.s : 1 hari kami 1 family cerita2 pasal our childhood... none of my lil sis remember kenangan sy dgn drg... they said, dorg perasan kewujudan sy time sy 1st keluar dari umah.. that was beberapa tahun yg dulu when i was 18... dimana sy sebelum itu??? sy pun x ingat... haha!!

2) Work
Working life memang tiring... we work hard to gain something and to survive sampai masa2 tertentu (biasanya sampai hujung bulan haha!!)... for me, working life in construction field mmg challenging... sometimes rasa lemah, mo mengalah but still move on and in the end, i survived... I still remember when i was alone, tiada saudara mara di sini... pernah hidup tanpa gaji and i was trying very hard that time... no one to turn to... but once again i was survived... I develop myself day by day... i became stronger and stronger tanpa disedari... 1 day 1 of my bff tegur sy... she said sy sudah banyak berubah... sy pun pelik... berubah macam mana? she said sy jadi garang n lebih berani... dulu blur2 n lembut2... dia terkejut dengar sy marah2 hari 2... bergaduh dgn my senior... pastu dia pg hebahkan kpd all my bff d swak... smua pun xdapt bayangkan mcm mn rupa marah sy haha... even sy pun xsedar perubahan ni... maybe terikut2 kali dengan perangai org2 site... hari2 kena marah... hari2 kena garang dengan org... plus, marah dengan org yg suka buli2... now i can protect myself... kalau dulu sy bergantung dengan my bff utk buat keputusan utk diri sy... tp working life ni memang btl2 membentuk my personality... "Time teach us to be independent, believe in ourselves n be strong"

p.s : I was spending my teenage life with my bff... n sy paling kecil at that time... semua tindak tanduk sy drg perhatikan... dengan siapa sy berkawan, nasihat pg cuci kain, kena makan ini, kena makan itu... makan ada org masakkn... memang manja that time... but, bila balik rumah sy kn bertukar personality jadi kakak... sy kena jaga my lil sis...

3) Love
Sy start bercinta2 ni time tingkatan 3... syok betul bercinta time 2... puppy love... kirim2 surat... bagi2 hadiah... tp real love start time matrix... mula2 main2 tp x tau plak knp pandai serius... orang cakap cinta itu buta... but for me, cinta mmg buta sebab dia x mata so it's normal... but org yg buta sebab cinta memang bodoh sbb x guna akal n fikiran utk menghargai diri sendiri... bercinta dgn c 'H' 2 mmg cinta pertama la kunun... tp x berjalan seperti apa yg diharapkan... wpun sedih, tapi ttp jg mo teruskan... 5 tahun memendam rasa... sampai la x tahan lagi terpaksa lepaskan... time 2 baru pandai berfikir... knp la menyeksa diri utk org yg xmenghargai kita kan... just remember, u r too young to destroy ur future... kesian me menyeksa c diri sendiri sebab org lain... "Time heals a broken heart and give u a chance to improve yourself... so take it... it will never come back... take as much as u need..."

p.s : 1 man came into my life... he's so good to me... but this time i will speak out whenever i feel wrong... no secrets n so far, relationship kami bgs... bila time gaduh2 mesti dia tanya knp sy ni garang sangat dgn dia? dulu sy mcm 2 ka dgn my ex? n i said no... dulu sy x pernah bergaduh dgn my ex.. sebab smua pun terpendam... masing2 ego... i learn from my mistake... biar la gaduh2 asalkan kita tau what's going on... daripada diam2 n then kumpul2 then meletup pastu x dapat diselamatkan lg... hehe...

These 3 items adalah yg paling penting dalam hidup sy...
1) U can choose ur bestfriend or kakak angkat or abang angkat... when it comes to family, u don't have to choose... they are all yours... appreciate them...
2) How can u survive without a career? jangan terlalu bergantung dengan org... there are limitation to everything... In the end we have no one to turn to but ourselves... believe in urself...
3) Love is blind but men got eyes and brain... learn to love yourself before u love someone, u are too precious to be harmed...


Time is Running Out... XoXo